...manifestation
The other day I was taking a walk and started to think about how things manifest. We all know the old saying....you have to think things to fruition, or something like that. One year ago I was completing my teaching career of 10 years, recovering from a very exhausting work and trying to figure out next steps. I stalled out...to put it nicely. I couldn't find my direction, felt I had nothing to say and everything I tried seemed tired and without life. I just stayed in that place and spent my days with my daughters, friends, having dinners on the deck and thinking a lot..Thinking about how I wanted things to be. How was I going to get there, what did I have to learn, who did I have to connect with.
My answers were pretty clear; first I had to connect with myself, calm down, and just keep moving forward. I had lost myself in the lives and dreams of other people for so long that I had no idea who I was/am. It took me six months to regain a sense of self and then I could begin to figure out my 'vision', who my 'audience' is and all the other things that happen when one finally can cut through all the veils...others ideas of who we are and to be able to see clearly.
So this is where I stand today. I have manifested a lot over the past 12 months and I am really excited to share with you all the news of what all that dreaming, visualizing and doing has created. So I think it is true... we have to think it up, keep taking one step forward everyday, and then be able to look back and say...yes...I have gotten somewhere and moved further along my path..
Inspiration...
Where does it come from? How do we tap into it? What do we do with it?
Those are my burning questions these days. Yesterday I had to take a quick trip to Whidbey Island, WA. Whidbey could be considered one of the great beauties of the Pacific Northwest. When I was riding on the ferry, the shapes of the pilings inspired me with their huge, hulking structures, and at the same time furnishing a nice perch for the seagulls. Then it was the glistening water, blue as could be just there for our pleasure and finally the landscape of Whidbey... my favorite being fields of tall grass bending with the wind, in the softest shades of green. I suppose all these "elements" influence us on a deep level and then inform our decisions when it comes to manifesting some creation, no matter what it is.
It is all in the process....
Completion...
I think that completing is one of the more important things we do in our lives. Whether it is an assignment in school, an artistic project, a paper or whatever, it is such a great feeling when we complete whatever it is we are trying to accomplish. That is why this 'project' that I am embarking on is so important for me to complete. It is isn't just all the minute details of starting a business which, oh wow, there are many. It is that I started this when I was eight years old. That was a long time ago. It feels so good to finally be at a place in my life that I can finally feel complete with this process. Yet at the same time every time I begin a new garment it feels like I am starting all over again with another project to complete....
our beginning
For most of my life I have striven to be self sustaining, mostly in business for myself. Even when I worked for someone else, I was still in business for myself. This past year I have been on a much deserved and much loved sabbatical to explore, travel, discover, think and make some major life changes. What I thought would be a quick transition actually took nearly nine months to finally feel settled and ready to start fresh. That was a long, frustrating nine months because I felt like I was just treading water and could barely keep my head above on most days. It took a trip to Mexico, traveling through huge cities, small towns, meeting a myriad of characters and after all the busy, ending at the beach, having the space to answer all the unanswerable questions with a feeling of being ready to begin. So here I am, and it isn't just me this time. I my doing this with daughters interest too. We are pulling it all in under one heading, yet making sure that each of our voices will be heard and our ideas and inspirations realized.....